Romance Webster defines it is as a feeling of excitement and mystery associated with love. Since I was a young girl I have been obsessed with the idea of romance and a "knight and shinning armor". I would day dream about the perfect guy for more hours then I would truly like to admit and all the ways he would fall head over heels in love with me. Fast forward time to my early twenties and I quickly learned that guys don't act like the guys in "chick flicks". It was an utter disorientation for me because I didn't have a whole lot else to go on. Ok, I was very naive growing up and had absolutely NO dating experience until I graduated from high school. Before you start thinking I'm some kind of ugly girl. I want to take a moment to explain it to you in simple terms. I wasn't allowed to date. Yes, you read that correctly. I wasn't allowed to date. If my parents could have put a chastity belt on me I think they would have. I was never really boy crazy or even had that many guys swoon over me.It made it that much harder to try and understand where my parents were coming from. Even now with kids of my own it seems ridiculous.
The day I graduated from High School I entered the dating world. To be more specific I had my very First Boyfriend and guess what?!!? I asked him out. Which isn't the romantic comedy role I had originally scripted for myself. I always pictured the "guy" sweeping me off my feet in some romantic gesture. My idea of romance was not set in reality and I learned that quickly. The First Boyfriend only lasted until I went to college unfortunately but I was seeking romance and love. The First Boyfriend was in short supply on both of those fronts. After dating tall guys, short guys, ugly guys, weird guys, firefighters, trash talkers, and wimps. I finally found the guy who ended up playing my leading man. I meet my now husband J at a friend birthday party. We shared a heated glance at one another that ran through my whole body. Unlike the First Boyfriend J made the first move on me and asked me out. After our first date; J and I date for only 6 months before we were engaged and 3 months after that we were pronounced husband and wife. Our honeymoon phase didn't last long.
Our marriage has gone through many obstacles and I'm glad to tell you we have become stronger together despite our adversity. One of the biggest hit areas has been romance and deep intimacy even though I will be approaching my thirties soon. I'm still that teenage girl inside desiring all the sappy romantic gestures that would make most people gag. I'm hoping with this project that I create this romance in my marriage. Who said it had to be the guys role?
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